Balaeva Pride

Where is my pride?
It's in the back seat of my car
but I can't drive
so we haven't moved so far.
Just sitting there
in awkward silence I can't bear
breathing in this stuffy air.

You hurt me much!
And I'm not sure if I should stay.
Can barely stand you anymore
but still ain't going anywhere.

I guess I'll wait
until the hatred goes away,
dissolves in water
like the pain.
But this one is going to stay.

Maybe
I shouldn't have
let you in.

My mum told me that the ones who you love most
can hurt you so much that you wish you'd die.
But when I met you I was blind like all the fools that fall in love,
I told her that's a lie.

And look at me now where I am.
I'm standing on a stupid highway
miles away from where I should be.
I don't even have a license.
But here's my pride,
I'm self-sufficient, self-contained and independent,
broken, lonely, and offended.

Where is my pride?
It’s in the back seat of my car.
But I can’t drive
so we haven’t moved so far.
Just sitting there.
And you no longer seem to care.
I wish it was just a nightmare.

I thought I’m strong
and I can hide myself from you
'cause you’re the last one the Earth
who deserves to see me through.

I wanna shout.
I wanna stab you with a knife.
But I’ll be patient and just wait
until your karma screws your life.

My mum told me that the ones who you love most
can hurt you so much that you wish you'd die.
But when I met you I was blind like all the fools that fall in love,
I told her that's a lie.

And look at me now where I am.
I'm standing on a stupid highway
miles away from where I should be.
I don't even have a license.
But here's my pride,
I'm self-sufficient, self-contained and independent,
broken, lonely, and offended.

My mum told me that I was wrong.
Now I'm alone singing this song.
It hurts like hell
but you don't care.

How could you do this to me?
How could I be so naïve?
It hurts like hell.
Wish you could feel the same.